Sia – “Chandelier”


I love chandeliers (and all lighting really) but I really like the idea of swinging from the chandeliers and living like tomorrow doesn’t exist. The words in the song are strong and she sings her heart out in this song, in my opinion. I also love singing, art, music and dance so this appeals to me as it reminds me of myself as a child. I lived a lot of my time as a child in my bedroom alone doing such dances and performances to unseen audiences while my parents partied or slept off their last party. This little girl in Sia’s video is about 12 years old and her name is Maddie Ziegler and she is awesome, so enjoy!

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Still Just a Regular Ol’ Pharmacy Tech


Well, those of you who follow me may know that I was to interview for an auditor position within my current employer. I did not get the job, but I am okay with that. In the beginning, I felt very good about my chances and somewhere along the way that changed. It was like the universe was telling me that I had the job in the beginning and then about 3/4 of the way through, that message changed. Even my horoscope, which I swear knows everything, started out telling me something new at work was on the horizon and left me feeling pretty good that I would get the job. The horoscope changed too! About a week and a half before I heard back from the corporate people, it started telling me that I shouldn’t get discouraged when something I had been hoping for didn’t work out. The horoscope said that this was for the best, and while I had had some great feelings about it before, this was not to be anymore. At this point, I knew I would not get the job. I assume that the vast knowledge of the ‘all that is’ decided that this would not work for me anymore. I am not sure if the job changed 3/4 of the way through, or if I did. There was no extra pay involved, but there would have been travel allowances, etc. This didn’t matter so much to me, not as much as having a job I would enjoy. I will assume something may not have worked out and I would have been left as miserable as I am in the pharmacy sometimes.

The pharmacy is not as miserable as it was before, though. I have been in charge of the inventory and ordering, etc. and it has really worked out well. My store manager and the district folks have been very pleased and there has even been some talk of me going to other stores to show them how I do the inventory and trying to help them implement their own changes to the way they do theirs. I do get opposition from inside the pharmacy but I am not worried about that so much as I am how the bosses feel. The last two quarters, I have done two AWESOME inventories and at the end of the quarter, everyone got their bonuses and patted me on the back, and that is enough for me. I have done my job. Whether or not I get a bonus is not important. (Translation – I didn’t get a bonus). But that’s okay. I just enjoy doing a good job and being praised for it. The praise and the smiles and so much better than no praise and no smiles when you have worked your butt off.

So maybe I am where I am supposed to be for now. It has been a year since I moved from the Pharmacy of Hell to this other pharmacy (in same company) and I have to admit that I am happier at the new place. By happier, I mean I don’t want to kill anyone. I am not sure if one can ever go to work in a retail chain pharmacy and not at some point ponder killing someone (co-worker, patient or boss), but this is better than most, I think.

 

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Grasshoppers Are Everywhere!


I am still here! I didn’t run away again…well, not completely. I have been hanging out with my guys from the motorcycle club way too much recently. It’s all Netflix’s fault. They give you 79 episodes all at once. Back in the day you would wait an entire week to see what happened and now you can watch 5 seasons in a week. Well, that’s probably possible if all you do is watch constantly. Anyway, I have the pipe up to my mouth and ‘Sons of Anarchy’ is the crack. I am powerless. I was bragging to someone the other day about how awesome it is not watching the news anymore but I am sure making up for it with fictional, small town gang activity.

That last paragraph was meant to only tell you why I have been absent again and since I was about to start waxing philosophically about the Sam Crow guys, I figured I’d better get on with the real story.

Not so long ago I wrote about my Spirit Animal, the grasshopper (GH) and you may peruse that post here. The situation has not changed one bit and I will tell you all about how the grasshopper has caught my attention on NUMEROUS occasions since I figured out that it was my Spirit Animal. I even have some GH pics to share, but these are only a few of the times that the GH has entered into my space. Hopefully, if you are thinking or wondering about your Spirit Animal you might get some inspiration from my previous post and see how it has played out since then.

 

 

The GH above hitched a ride on my car all day from home to work and back home again. He is rather large and I have noticed that a lot of these GH’s take on an almost shrimpy look. I noticed him when I driving to work and I worried for him, afraid that the wind would take him away, but he hunkered down and used the mirror to deflect the wind. I surely didn’t think he would still be out there when I left work, but he was.

 

 

This guy is very different than the green ones I usually see. I looked down to see him on the railing at our town fair as I was waiting for my kids to come down the really tall slide thingee. Usually I am just chillin’ and all of a sudden I look down to see a GH just chillin’ there with me. Sometimes they are flying out at me, really trying to get my attention.

 

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I was at work one day, waiting on a customer in the drive-thru. I sent the tube out for the lady to send her prescription back in. When I opened the tube chute thing, this GH seemed to fly out at me. I raised my hands to my face and when I looked back up, he was just hanging out in the chute thing, like he had never flown out at me. Maybe he jumped back up in there, but I was not really that surprised that this was happening as it had been happening like crazy for a while at that point.

 

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The two pictures above are of the tiniest grasshopper I think I have ever seen. Looking a little shrimpy again, this GH was on some flowers I cut in the yard. I brought several flowers in and almost threw this one out when I saw the baby GH. Of course I rescued him and took several pics before taking his little ass back into the yard. He was so cute!

A recent GH incident happened when I got into the shower one morning last week. There had been a threat of frost outside and I moved all the plant babies into the house. One such was put in the shower for watering and I retrieved it from the shower the night before. I guess the GH stayed in the shower all night to make sure I got the message. I regret that I have no pictures of that to share, but suffice it to say that I was screaming for Hubby to come get the thing! I am excited and in love with my Spirit Animal, but I am still a girl and specific things must be met before I want to hold a GH in my hand. Those are: #1 – don’t be naked when holding GH. #2 – know that insect is near and that I am about to be attempting to hold it. I was completely taken by surprise, but yet somehow still not.

UPDATE: I paused in my writing to go pick up my daughter from dance class and we decided to pick something up for dinner. I debated with myself on what I wanted to eat as we drove down the street and I pulled into the Chinese drive-thru and ordered our food. It wasn’t until I was almost finished ordering that I noticed the grasshopper on the lit up menu. I can’t tell you how good it felt in the moment to just know I was on the right path. I don’t know that I believe that literally, as I am sure I will regret the Chinese food in the morning, like I usually do. I felt like no matter where I had stopped, the Universe would put the GH there.  See Chinese menu GH below.

 

 

I have been feeling pretty good today, despite the fact that I woke up at 4:00 AM so I could be at work at 5:00 AM for the pharmacy inventory. This is my second time doing the inventory and I rocked it out even more than before. I was $8,000 over last quarter and $13,000 over this quarter. So…we have $13,000 worth of drugs more than they thought we would. That’s money all day because I was thrifty, careful, monitored the inventory and made myself pretty much the most annoying tech ever, I am sure my co-workers would tell you. In the end it has been worth it because there were some naysayers who thought I would do extra bad this time because it came out so good last time. “Surely you’ve made a mistake,” one co-worker said. BAHAHAHA…take that naysayers! (Sorry I enjoy a little healthy competition!)

So the District Pharmacy Manager was there and she was very impressed and I could tell she was happy with all my hard work. This is good because, on Thursday, I have the phone call to interview for the pharmacy auditor position I applied for a few weeks ago. She mentioned that, if I got the job, I would be traveling about once a week and then from time to time to help other pharmacies with things they need help with. She said I could help some of the others with their inventory, since I was so good at it. I could just feel the naysayers cringing. It’s nice to hear the praise when I have had a difficult time with some of the others about the inventory. They have questioned my every move and I am glad to see all the headaches and anxiety weren’t in vain.

Because Grasshopper encouraged me, I took a leap of faith and applied for the job which I may not have done otherwise. I didn’t worry about how I would manage all the travel, I just leaped. Always jumping forward to the next thing, the next adventure.

Wish me luck for my interview Thursday!

 

 

 

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What The Hell is Wrong with my WordPress???


Is it just me or is WordPress bogged down with weird pop-ups and viruses? I had 8 viruses after perusing WordPress for one hour and when I got those removed and came back, still crap everywhere! When I got on WP tonight, there are all these strange ads and pop-ups up CONSTANTLY! Is anyone else experiencing this? Plus, my latest post has all these weird links in the body of the post and they make these pop-ups happen. Please help!!!

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Psychic Auditor Tech?


Anyone who has read even a little of my blog knows that I have issues being a Pharmacy Tech. It’s a thankless, stressful job and when you are in the midst of a crazy day, you certainly don’t feel like you are paid enough to deal with the events you are having to deal with. I have always had issues with my bosses; in fact, I’ve always had trouble with authority figures in general. So…this story will start where I guess I left off blogging before. In my post,“F-you”, I Said to my BossI had had about all that I could handle…obviously.

When I left the old pharmacy location to move across town to another one of our stores I really thought that I was leaving behind all the old pharmacy problems I was having. I had a Toxic Boss at the old store and we butted heads all the time, which has certainly been chronicled in my blogs from the past. I remember just walking in this new store thinking that I had finally escaped the ridiculousness only to find that I was right back into the same exact situation as before, only this time there were different people. How frustrating this was! This new boss was from China, had no experience and was straight out of pharmacy school and was now my manager! My old manager has been a Pharmacist for over 20 years and is a white woman from the South. These two women are completely different yet they somehow seemed to have the same agenda when it came to me. I remember grieving the loss of my old pharmacy, which now seemed like kitten tails and lollipops compared to dealing with this new one.

New Boss didn’t believe anything we said to her and she seemed to have this huge chip on her shoulder when it came to being able to relinquish power or control of anything to anyone. She didn’t know the first thing about managing a pharmacy and this somehow just gets to me. I am mad at the company for allowing such and I am mad at her for being there. Every time she made a mistake I would get a little madder. Never mind that it isn’t possible for one to never make a mistake; it was that I couldn’t allow her a bit of slack because she questioned all of us about everything to the point of insanity. She didn’t acknowledge that all of us had been working in a pharmacy long enough to know a thing! There is a combined 78 years of experience between us and yet she continued to doubt us and go behind our backs to check our work. There were several times that she broke a rule or messed something up that could have been a very big deal and I would try to walk her through it and make her understand how to do it next time. Some people say that when I am in this zone I can sound a little bossy and maybe piss people off. I don’t care how it sounds because certain people need to be talked to a certain way for your words to have any weight. I take my job seriously in that I am there to support the Pharmacist, including when I think they are screwing up or could endanger someone. So there was all of this craziness and to make it even better there was a huge language barrier. She spoke English and even wrote pretty decent in English (not great by any means) but no one could understand her at all. She never tried to slow down any or to enunciate differently or anything. The boss I told “F-you” to is Vietnamese and every now and then he will call on us to translate for him, but she would barely allow it. I felt so bad watching these patients walking away with no more information than they had when they arrived. They were ready to head out wit their business in droves because there wasn’t a Pharmacist there that they could understand.

So, anyway, New Boss finally screwed up something big, which I will not speak of for fear that one day scary corporate company will fire me over it. Suffice it to say that at this point we are certainly thinking her days were numbered. She knew it too; there had been so much already that she mishandled with the managerial part of the job, but now there was the final nail for the coffin. It has been a wonderful month since she was fired, but I can still remember everything that happened like it were just tonight. I can remember where everyone was standing when the joyful news was shared; I was typing a prescription in the computer with my back to the rest of them. I felt her come through the gate and wondered what had been taking her so long upstairs. She told the others something about not working with them anymore and everyone was confused and asking her what she meant. I stole a glance at this point and saw her face, which was blank like it was most of the time. I remarked to myself that no one else seemed as excited as I was, but I guess they were still confused. I, psychic that I am, saw this coming since the incident occurred. I knew it would happen, but I was still surprised as to the day in which it occurred. It seemed unremarkable that morning when I started to work. Little did I know what a glorious day it would be. When she started to tell them that we all wouldn’t be working together again, I had to turn around because a smile was spreading across my face so big and I just knew I would look like The Grinch if I turned around. I swear I was more meant for Human Resources or something as I am always glad to see a liability go.

So, yes, there you have it. In my sabbatical I have turned into a downright asshole. How can one be so happy to have someone get fired? I suppose one day someone will delight in my firing, but for now I had to be glad because she had driven us all BATSHIT FREAKIN’ CRAZY! All I know is that if I’m going to Hell in a handbasket then I will be going in a plush, easy-going, much less-stressful one. I will take any relief I can get at this point. We all noticed how nice it has been since she has been gone and even though we have one less regular person there, it sure doesn’t seem like it.

So…to finish up this long story – I was reading the pharmacy e-mails the other day and our district manager (over say 15-20 stores) has sent us a message about an auditor position that has opened up and she was wondering if any techs were interested in applying for the job. It immediately take pause as this is my kinda shit! I have always been like unknowingly training for this position. I am like the police and the lawyer of any pharmacy I will ever work at. I am constantly looking at the things that could get us audited by insurance, lawsuits or getting reprimanded by the board and trying to stop such matters. These are all very trivial things to most people; things involving billing and day supply type stuff. But if you want to be a pharmacy that actually makes money and stays in business, certain rules have to be followed. I have always been annoyingly serious about these things. I absolutely abhor rules in certain aspects of my life, but when there is someone who owns a company and wants to pay me a decent wage I will do what you want me to (within reason obviously). The competitor in me takes over and I want to make my coach proud.

So anyway, I almost didn’t speak up and say that I was interested. I was absolutely interested, but this job will take me to these other pharmacies in the district and I will audit their billing and whatnot and sometimes will have to stay in a hotel. I just made a snap decision that my family will make it work for those times when I have to go out of town and I replied that I was interested. Will you believe that she sent me a message the next day and said she chose me as ONE OF THREE PEOPLE PICKED TO INTERVIEW!!! It felt so right then and it still feels very right. She said she was excited that I was interested. She knows what a police I try to be up there and I think my tenacity is finally paying off. I have a good feeling about it, as I have the whole time. I hate to jump the gun, but I have been looking for ways to do something else with my Pharmacy Tech license. I feel like there is more out there for me if I am to continue on this path a little longer. I, of course, long to take the plunge to not working and sticking it to the man every chance I get by homesteading, but for now I feel like there is more to the story of pharmacy life.

So…those of you who have managed to make it to the bottom of this looooong story, like my story and I will send love and gratitude your way. In return I ask that you send all the good vibes you can to this chick who is going to interview me over the phone at some time yet to me determined. Hopefully it will not be when I am looking to cut some doctor’s head off or something. I need her to know that I am the person for this job and that I have ideas and vast sums of knowledge in my head that I have been collecting for this particular job.

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Happy Anniversary Psychic Pharmacy Tech


Yesterday marked the second anniversary of my blog here on WordPress! I haven’t been on here in forever, but I choose today to make a change in that area of my life. I have really let my spiritual life go on the back burner and I miss it and I want to get back to what I was doing. I have felt like a bump on a log for long enough.

So, starting today I am going to start back blogging and have even been thinking of doing some video. We will see!

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A Year Older (And Wiser, I Suppose)


Saturday was my birthday.

The day started out okay enough. I didn’t have to go into the pharmacy, so that’s something. I can remember my son trying to wake me up so that he could gain access to my phone (he’s an Angry Birds addict – we’re so pleased). I could tell I was in a bad mood from the moment he threw an ever-lovin’ fit when I told him he couldn’t have the phone. We lay in bed a little longer and all I could think about were all the things I needed to get up and accomplish. I have a hundred little projects I think about and never complete. I’m a year older and I’ve got to get busy before all these things devour me! I quickly ask hubby if he’s going to get up and help me (with these 100 tasks I need to complete). He proceeded to take a tone with me that I didn’t like. “It’s my freakin’ birthday!” I yelled in my head. “How dare he act slightly displeased with my tone and take on a tone of his own – on my BIRTHDAY!” So I cried, half Scarlett O’Hara and half actually crying. He doesn’t see me cry often and he doesn’t like the crying so I feel slightly better knowing he would regret taking that kind of tine with me when we clearly have all this stuff to do. We don’t really ever fight so tones and inflections are all we have, you see.

I get out of the bed, achy in my hips and the heels of my feet. Pharmacy can take its toll on your mental state and on your body. We aren’t allowed to sit down unless on a break. We hold the phone between our shoulder and our ear all day long while counting pills and juggling every other task imaginable. I do a lot of repetitive movements at work and I think this has contributed to my overall body pain, which was pretty much non-existent before this job. Every morning I almost have to push my legs forward when I take my first steps because my hips hurt so bad. This gets markedly better throughout the day, but the first time of the day you finally get to sit down, you are reminded of the pain when you get back up. I am feeling especially old now, my physical body betraying me already. Thirty-four sucks already.

I know, I know, those of you older than 34 are allowed to groan at my depression over growing older. “Just wait until you’re 50!” they’ll say. I certainly don’t relish turning that age either. I am, however, glad to not be 23 anymore. I was an idiot in those days and I am glad to have a bit of experience to guide me in my life travels. Some tell me I am an ‘old soul’ and I do feel that way sometimes, but on Saturday I was feeling a lot of things, none of which was gratefulness for my ‘old soul’ or my 34 year-old scars. I imagine my 50 year-old self will think that my 34 year-old self was an idiot too.

I took a lot of walks down Memory Lane. I could feel myself panicking at the thought of losing my girlishness. Maybe I am a fool who lost her girlishness a long time ago. I think it may have happened the first time with someone whom I was 99% sure was exactly my age called after me, “Ma’am!” I turned all around looking for this older person he was surely referring to. It takes me a minute to realize this man is talking to me. Upon further inspection he isn’t as old as I thought. He must be about 20 or 21. I was probably about 30. I can say without question that I can be delusional sometimes, imagining myself thinner and prettier with virtually no wrinkles and stretch marks. I figure as long as I’m rolling around thinking a certain way, who cares what others think?

I start to feel the world creeping closer to its position on the perch of my shoulders. How can I slow it all down? I don’t want to grow old and die! It seems like just yesterday I was hanging out with my friends during the summer, not a CARE in the world. It seems like just a short while ago my mom was telling me that one day I would understand what it was like for her to raise us kids. One day – blah, blah, blah. She was right and I’ll be damned if I don’t find myself saying the exact same things she would say when I was a kid, the things I swore I would never say. Three blinks and I will be her age; 56. How has it come to this? I can still remember her the way she was back then. It seems as if it were just yesterday. Life can be cruel and these memories sure can be bittersweet.

I find myself looking to a purpose for it all. I believe we must have all decided on this course we are living now. We knew there would be sadness and we did it anyway because we knew what we would gain from it all, but do we not want to be happy at some point? When does the status and the clothes and the Matrix not matter anymore? There are so many illusions we allow to run our lives. What good is all the money in the world if you work so hard – away from your happiness – to get it? Is complete and utter happiness not the goal? Maybe that’s Heaven I am thinking about. There is beauty in this world for sure, but not near what we want. Knowing there is more out there doesn’t make all the heartache go away, but it does help a little. I know I have been feeling sorry for myself but I am also upset too. I should be further in my spiritual growth by now! I know that some things come in due time, but how long can one use that excuse when they rest on their laurels all day? I go against what I know I need to do sometimes. I choose the Matrix when I should be seeing the truth. I continue to complain about a job that makes me unhappy. All I need is a little meditation and a few more grasshoppers to make me realize my dream in this life and I put it off. I think the reason that 34 has been so hard for me is that is feels way too much like 33 and 32 and 31. It’s time I did something about that.

 

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Shake It Off – Taylor Swift


Anyone who has been reading my blog for a while (bless you folks, by the way) knows how much I LOVE Taylor Swift. I truly feel like she has written the songs of my teenage years. Of course a lot of girls feel that way which is why she is so popular. This song is as catchy as “22” and I love the video. Haters are gonna hate, Taylor, thanks for reminding us to shake it off! 

Check out some of my Taylor Swift photography here!

 

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“F— You…” I Said to my Boss


I remember a post not so long ago when I talked about these cycles in my life and the way I behave during these times. I tend to fly off the handle at the smallest thing sometimes or I speak my mind when I usually would not do so. One might contribute this to being Bipolar or Schizophrenic but I don’t see it that way. (Maybe Schizophrenics don’t either). I see these cycles that I go through and I almost unable to stop myself when in the middle of one. I know this is growing toward further enlightenment and that lessons are being learned at the same time I am being given things I have asked the Universe for. Read my “Cycles” post here. As I re-read that post, written much longer ago than I thought, I realized that I am still kinda in the same place. Sure, cycles have come and gone, but I feel like I am dealing with the same situation again. 

Anyway, long story short I told my boss, “F— you!” after I had been listening to his mouth for far too long. I truly didn’t care if I got fired, but somewhere inside myself I knew I wouldn’t be fired. All the more reason to think that maybe I am not done at that pharmacy. We had been arguing quite a bit that day, my boss and I, which I am apt to do from time to time. He accused me of being a liar and I went off. I may lie to myself every now and again but I have made a great effort to not lie to people. I used to lie all the time and I have learned and earned so much by telling the truth that I almost can’t help myself these days. So when the boss accuses me of lying, I take great offense to this. I suppose I shouldn’t care what he thinks, but he will spread his stories all over the pharmacy when I am not there so I want to make sure my “F— you” got well documented in the tale. 

It was really quite refreshing although it was hard to sit back and enjoy this right away because with my tirade came more tirades. I was on a roll. I literally seeked out others to whom I had some things to say. I wanted to make sure the hard-to-swallow truth came out while I still had the balls. This was an emotional time and I definitely was keeping to myself as much as I could. I felt change coming over me, but per the usual I am not yet sure what this change has amounted to. I have been feeling myself travelling back in time in my dreams and reliving past relationships. Note to anyone thinking about digging up any bones – they are still there where you put them for a reason. Maybe I needed to make sure of this, and I am glad I did. If you happen to be reading this, thank you!

I was having heart palpitations and was near panic mode just a week or so ago and now I feel myself starting to climb out. My heart beats normal again and I am not panicky anymore. Interestingly enough my boss has starting treating me more like I wanted him to. It seems that saying what I said may have changed the way he thought he could treat me. Maybe he has more respect for me or is waiting to get me good one of these days, but until then I will continue being a Pharmacy Tech until Source thinks it is time for a change. Maybe it is I who will have to decide. 

In spirit animal news, I opened the capsule for the drive thru at the pharmacy and a grasshopper jumped right out at me. I was speechless for a minute, but I took this as a good sign. I feel like I have been through Hell, but here is this grasshopper encouraging me to continue forward. I have also been noticing a lot of locusts lately, albeit they have all been dead so far. I read something a while back when researching about the GH as a spirit animal. I remember someone mentioning when the GH had been starved and was needing nourishment it would turn into a locust. I am not sure if this is true or not but seeing locusts might mean I am needing a change, without which might make me feel malnourished. I totally agree with this and identified with it when I saw a locust the other night, dead on my steps. See my “What is Your Spirit Animal” post here.

I have missed everyone. Please rest assured that I am alive and they haven’t locked me up in a padded room just yet. 

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What is Your Spirit Animal?


The whole animal spirit guide thing started for me when I read a post from one of my spirit sisters, Linda. The post was called Spiritual Development: The Otter Returns! I commented that I wanted a spirit animal to come to me. I asked then and there for me to get to know my “otter”. It seems like such a lifetime ago, but I made that comment on June 9 of this year. Maybe a week later, I saw my first grasshopper. He looked pretty much like the grasshopper in the picture below and is the normal type of GH we see in this area.

Courtesy of Wikipedia

Courtesy of Wikipedia

No big deal, right? It’s summer and there are plenty of grasshoppers out in the summer. I have to admit that in my week after asking for a spirit animal, there was no shortage of animals to view. I didn’t even ask myself the question, “Is this my animal?” if something caught my eye. When I saw him something inside me recognized it. Over the last two months the grasshopper has integrated himself into a ton of my situations and thinking back I now remember several grasshopper moments a few weeks before I read Linda’s post. One of the creatures latched himself to the side mirror of my car while my car was sitting under my carport. He stayed on my car all day until we went home. Shortly after pulling up to my house, GH took his leave and I was left shaking my head.

This is the grasshopper that hitched a ride on my car.

I had them following me at the river not that long ago and I have had several approach me in the parking lot on many occasions at work. I would have to say that there has been at least one GH sighting about every 3 days or so and some days I will see several of them.

I would never have chosen this spirit animal based on previous knowledge of grasshoppers, which I admit was very minimal. The GH is not the go-to animal for one looking for a bad ass spirit animal. Tigers are cool and dolphins and maybe elephants; I would have imagined myself with some big, awesome animal. After hearing the grasshopper’s song, I recognized it as my own and so the spirit guide is realized. I saved research on the GH for tonight and I have to admit that it sounds like me. The things that the GH represents are traits I am accused of having all the time. This so-often overlooked insect revealed itself to me and I know I don’t have to read about the symbolism of a dolphin or a tiger to know that I have the right animal. The message the the GH brings with it is an awesome one; one that I knew all along, but an inspiring message all the same.

Those chosen by the GH are said to be visionaries; usually intuitive and creative people. I love this part of a blog post I read on ‘What’s Your Sign?’. You can see the full post here, but I wanted to share these beautiful words with you.

“As an animal totem, the grasshopper appeals to artists, musicians and dancers. To wit, the lilting song this creature emits is an inspiration to our muse; its skittering and jumping is divine choreography. The artist within us all easily recognizes the grasshopper making its own dance steps, and grooving to its own special melody.

The grasshopper moves to its own rhythm and tune, indicating this creature is a advocate of intuition and listening to our inner voices. The grasshopper encourages us to listen to our own stirrings – those beautiful chirping lullaby’s that sing in our hearts are indications of our inner beauty and creativity. The grasshopper totem reminds us these inner musings must never be silenced – rather, they should be nurtured, and always remain as the background music to the performance of our lives.”

The grasshopper is here to remind us to take that leap of faith. There has been one thing in particular that I think about everyday and want to leap for. I know that this will mean big change and will surely completely turn our lives upside down. The need to take that leap is so strong that I feel it in my bones but I continue to sit still, very un-grasshopper like. I think I know that such a big leap will propel me into a different life, with friends and co-workers left behind. I think this is why I sit still, afraid to jump. Things are getting worse at work and I find myself in the exact same situation I was in at the other pharmacy. I cannot keep telling myself it is them that are the problem. I am the problem; I am a grasshopper stuck in a pharmacy and I want to be free to dance and be happy and be myself, without the constant reminder that I don’t belong. Maybe I take it the wrong way – the way that they treat me – but all that matters is how I perceive it and the message I feel I am getting from them. They may not even realize why they are acting this way to me. Poor folks, I am sure they think I am crazy. I am right back around, full circle to where I was with my old Toxic Boss. New boss is so very annoying and she lies and does everything to push my buttons that she can. I suppose she is just a messenger like the Toxic Boss was. The message is the same from both – “You’re in the wrong place.” It’s to the point that no matter how good I am at my job or what an asset I am, it seems to go unnoticed while people who break the rules and should have never been given a license in the first place, get to skate by and have excuses made for them all the time. The hardest part is not being able to let go of those injustices I feel are robbing me of my happiness in my job. Tensions are high and during these times I tend to get obstinate and vocalize the things that are running through my head. I spew forth my opinion at a rapid pace during this part of the process and take everything personally. I have started to notice the cycle as it begins again and again, the universe waiting on me to finally understand so that we can break the pattern. The GH wants me to leap.

I have definitely been very much like a grasshopper in my younger days and I had a tendency to jump from thing to thing that attracted me. Sometimes I was jumping away from something, but much like the grasshopper I would not jump backward once I had my mind made up. I have taken many leaps of faith in the past, knowing when it was all said and done I would know that I had made the right decision.

The grasshopper as a totem symbolizes patience and security as it is grounded to the Earth, like most of the other insect totems. The GH can be called upon to help with grounding oneself and this is something I am truly in need of right now. I have been unplugged for quite some time and still have not achieved the calmness and the serenity that I need in order to begin accepting more than day to day psychic messages.

I am excited to see what else my spirit animal has in store for me and I was wondering if y’all had a spirit animal? Do you know who your spirit animal is? If not, I certainly suggest you check into this. I feel so much better knowing that I just have to trust in spirit to help me realize my hopes and dreams.

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Dallas Arboretum – Everything Else


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More Cossatot River Pics


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These are some pictures from my beloved Cossatot River. My husband, son, Memaw and I went this past weekend and we had a great time. It was uncommonly cool for July in the Deep South and it was just so wonderful! The bottom pic is of some of the thirty or so hummingbirds that were buzzing around the deck. They were crazy!

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Shelley Unplugged


This is the first time I have cracked open the ol’ laptop in like a month, I think. I have been almost completely unplugged when at home. It took me a while to realize how isolated from the rest of the world I have become. I can’t remember the last time I watched a news show. I check out local news from time to time if a newspaper makes its way into the pharmacy. I remember asking the universe to make my life simpler; I want to eventually make our life on a homestead, completely self-sustaining one of these days. I am beginning to think that my requests are being answered. Everyday I feel closer to that scenario. I have to say that it feels really good, not being glued to every news story all the time. I would keep up with court cases and missing persons cases and whatever other cause I was interested in, but I don’t want to feel the way the news makes me feel. Maybe I have too many empathic traits to continue to subject myself to all the feelings and spirits that come with it. Sure, hearing about others going through devastating times should push one to want to rid the world of as many horrible things as they can. I do want to do that, but I don’t think that is my path. Everything feels set in motion already and I have left some things behind. 

I am definitely not feeling unplugged in the psychic department lately. Allowing all these worries about world events to go away has freed up some psychic room in my brain. This morning and the last several weeks of morning showers I am shown events and conversations that will happen throughout the day at work. It’s convenient because I feel like my subconscious is working on these situations and when it really occurs, I can already tackle the problem when I get to work and have it taken care of. Sometimes I hear myself repeat what I had said in my vision without even thinking about it. All of a sudden, the information is recalled and I just spit it out. It’s pretty amazing and weird to notice this happening quite a bit during the day but If feel like I am getting help so I welcome it. 

I don’t want to leave my blog. I am torn because I am enjoying my time out in the yard and this takes up a lot of the time I have when I am home when I am not taking care of kids and everything else. I have a lot of projects that I am working on at the house and I am really feeling pressure from the blog to keep coming back. Getting on here increases the chance I will get stuck in a six hour long search-a-thon with a spirit for some of their unfinished business, and I don’t want to waste my time on ghosts without agendas anymore. It would appear that when I get on the internet I am vulnerable and cannot seem to protect myself spiritually as much as I could when not on the internet. I’m all for relaying a quick message to someone but getting the run around from spirits is for the birds and I cannot do it anymore, and it is generally always a run around with them in my experience, unless it is a loved one or something. 

My chest feels heavy and I feel someone knocking at my spirit door, but I have shooed them off and better get off of here before they come back. I miss all of you so much and I am sorry I have been such a fair weather blogger lately, but I have thoughts of so many of you throughout the day and I feel like I receive advice from some of you though my guides when I am searching for answers. I hope everyone is doing okay and I would welcome any emails, which I can get through my phone. psychicpharmacytech@gmail.com

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