I need to meditate tonight. I need it! I have been going through a financial rough patch and while I know better than to let it get me down, it has been pretty bad and has taken its toll on me. I need some relief (financially and mentally). I have been at odds with the money idea and the face that I HAVE to have it. I don’t necessarily feel like I HAVE to have it unless I want to keep up my current lifestyle. The thing I struggle with is whether I want to keep it like it is to not. I have dreams and ideas about moving to the country with some close friends and living off the land. I am not crazy, I think I will still definitely need cell phone, internet, etc. but I am tired of feeding the machine. I want to eat non-processed food and organic and not spend 3 times the amount that regular grocery store food would cost. I want to wake up in the morning, put on some hippie chick dress and go collect eggs in my yard. I am tired of the rat race and I wonder if this is the reason I am dealing with the financial machine right now.